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(Warning: This Post IS a RANT. This song describes how I feel exactly. Listen and read at your own risk :P)

If someone were to ask me to describe life and the world in one word, it would be beautiful. If one was too ask me to describe politics, one word wouldn't be enough to describe how disgusting and corrupt the system is. Don't get me wrong, I probably wouldn't be able to do a better job then them. I just feel as though all that's happening now is because of the fact that these politicians that WE THE PEOPLE elect are betraying us. Our economy in America is dropping, educators are being dropped, men and women are being laid off, prices are rising, and these politicians are getting treated to an all expense paid "meeting" in a 5 - star resort in Hawaii.

 Some of the politicians even bringing their families along as a family vacation. In California, thousands of kids were out on the streets protesting against the massive tuition hikes. Thousands of Californians were out on the street protesting against corporate welfare and California had announced that there was $13 billion dollar shortfall. While all this was happening, these lawmakers set sail to Hawaii to hold a meeting. Unfortunately for them, a CBS2 reporter tagged along with them and saw what they were really up too. Many of them were caught by the pool, spending time with their family, and enjoying a nice meal. They were having a blast and whenever this reporter tried to find out more, they shut him out. Do you not find that suspicious? If what they were doing was right, why did they not clear it up? Probably the worst part about this little trip was the fact it was paid for by powerful companies, labor unions, and and lobbying interests. It starting too seem as though the ones who pay will be the ones who get helped. Early in October, a similar situation took place with the lawmakers of Hawaii where a group of thirty took a weekend, all expenses paid trip to Honolulu. The bill was a whopping $75,000+.

The system is filled with corruption. Whoever has the money, has the power. Buying off politicians, judges, officers, etc... It's reached the point where it seems as the innocent man is always the one who ends up getting punished.

Our society is dying. I'm starting to believe that people don't respect America; they fear it. With all these weapons and bombs that we have, with just a phone call and a click of a button, we could wipe out a country.

Anytime WE THE PEOPLE try to get our voice heard, the government just retaliates. Not only do they shut us down, they arrest us and beat us. Do they think that will stop us? Do they think that will make shut our mouths? If anything, it just makes us stronger. We, the COMMON PEOPLE, have all the power. Part of our job is too speak up against these crimes that are being committed by our own government.

This system that we've been living under might have worked before, but it seems to be failing now when we need it most. At this rate, there will come a time when the only "possible solution" is to blow up the enemy. We are killing our world will pollution, ignorance, selfishness, violence, corruption, deception. By ourselves, we won't be able to make a difference or be heard. But as a whole, they can't shut us down. It's time to stand up for what we believe in. No more taking all the lies of the dirty politicians. It's time for the truth. It's time for a change. It's time...to fight back.

(End Rant. You guys might see this rant as pointless and stupid, I completely understand your opinion.)

One thing that I've learned in these 17 years is that no matter what is on your mind or how you feel about something, you should never stop yourself from letting it all out just because you're afraid others won't like what you have to say. It doesn't matter what other's think about you. If they don't like you, oh well, screw them. You shouldn't have to waste your time with hateful people like them. Just keep true to yourself and never regret what happens. Something goes wrong, oh well oh well, dwelling on it isn't going to change anything. You just have to move on. It's your life, not theirs, so don't let them control you.

Unfortunately, I learned this lesson too late. I feel like such a hypocrite because now, I'm dwelling on a mistake and regretting some of the stuff I've done and said. Never was I able to tell my Dad that I don't want to be what he wants to be; I want to be my own person. Instead, I took in his dream and accepted it, agreeing with everything he said. I have lied too some people and hurt them emotionally which in turn lead me too lose one of the most important things to me; their friendship. All those lies and hurtful words spilled out of my mouth; I couldn't control myself. I felt that it's not a crime if I don't get caught, but I was wrong. First came the guilt that filled my mind and stomach. I thought it would go away after a while, but the more I lied, the worse it got. Then that one day when all was revealed, it hit me hard. I lost more than just a friend; I lost myself. It was bad enough that the walls were collapsing, now they were falling on me. I was trapped in a dark place on my own. No matter how many times I apologized and tried to explain myself, they were gone, for good.

But now, now I realize that it was all for the better. As the light started to penetrate through the collapsed walls,  I realized there was still hope. As I started rebuilding the walls, I modified them. A new person was being formed, one who would no longer lie to feel good. I took in all the problems from my life, court, loss of friends, dropping of grades, and used them. No longer would my voice go unheard. It's a long process, but slowly and surely, I've been building myself up from the ground up.

My point is that for too long, I lied a lot and took my Dad's dream of who I should be as my own. After a while, I started to believe my lies and that his dream was my dream too. Now...now I am starting to do things the way I want them to be done. No more people controlling me or stopping me from saying what I want too. Never stop yourself from being heard. We only live once, so live it the way you want too and never go unheard.
I know this was a little jumbled up post, but I guess the point I'm trying to make is that when the end of the road hits, will we be able too look back and say that we enjoyed the ride?